Hey there!

I know my blog is dead like a fish for a very-very-very-very-dery-mery-zeri long time, but I have decided not to blog until STPM finishes. There's been lots of personal problems and issues that I'm trying to cope, and STPM is the least of my worries. So, my blogging brain is going for a vacation.

Don't worry though. I will be back. Quoting The Terminator in Terminator 2: "I will be BACK. [add theme song here]"

The moment I restart my blog, get ready for a massive amount of pictures! Planning to buy a camera phone (though I don't know which model to choose from).

Cheers!

*What do you call a sarcastic boat?
*answer: Some Puns (sampan) =P

So tired. Physically and emotionally.

I spent one whole week non-stop doing the slides for GFG camp. It was one week left when they decided to change the concept of the slides. Goodness, it was hell back then. For that week I slept only 3 hours daily. I first do research, draft out, text out and picture out. It was madness. Mad, mad, madness.

The slides turned out to be great in the camp, with few glitches. But I felt "emo", not because of the process or the outcome, but because of the content of the slides.

Herbie Hancock was my subject.

He has changed the history of jazz literally. Without him, jazz will be just playing the saxophone, piano, cello and other strings ensemble. Yes, he was the one who added funk into jazz. Never heard of it before? Actually, most of the jazz music now has a bit of funk or even very funk in it. It was many years ago when he took a risk to add funk into jazz. A lot of critics think it was a talent wasted. Who in the world is stupid enough to spoil jazz by putting something elctronic inside? Well, he proved them wrong and his first jazz-funk music won him a Grammy. Now, he even beat Amy Winehouse (Whine-house? =P) in the Grammies by winning two more. His total Grammies is TWELVE. That's a lot.

His new album "River: The Joni Letters" is really wonderful and beautiful, by the way.

The depressing thing is that while researching on him, his younger days weren't really good in the sense that he was studying electrical engineering when he has a passion for music. Eventhough he did quite well mid-way in his course, he felt the music in him. When he decided to follow his heart, his mother was really against it. But he changed his course to study music.
Finally, his mother gave in, knowing that his son will make her proud, hoping the best from him.

What?

Sigh. It's really depressing to hear this in my current situation. Why can't I have the courage to be as firm as him? I felt that my dream was decided by my parents. Even if I was given a chance to decide my dream, reality hits me hard. Will I be able to support a family of my own? Should I continue my dream as a pianist or should I recheck my reality?

I feel fucked. The more I think, the more I don't want to study.

*Oi! Study la, dumb fuck!*

I actually heard that from my head few days ago. Sigh.

At least I feel lighter after posting this. =D

I would like to thank the GFG committee for making this camp great. It was fun, unless you see the background, where there were many last minute changes, tension flared and committee getting crazy. Yet, the camp was wonderful and it's all thanks to the committee (including me ar). We hope that the members have learnt a lot of things through this camp. So does the committee =P.

Exams over. (Who don't know that?)

This week is going to be another hell in making.

Already my slide show have to redo again due to many reasons (not suitable, style changed, change in agenda, etc.), which is giving me headache. But of course, I will do my heck of the best to make sure it will be damn good. *Please note Daniel is trying to give himself confidence, or shall we say, false hope?* By the way, I'm researching on Herbie Hancock, which makes me quite semangat. The more I research, the more I want to be a musician. ARGH~!!! =X

This week already doing my driving with the "L" on the forehead. Second day of lessons already my instructor asked me to drive on the road, which is turned out not bad. Most likely because he has the brake pedal at the passenger seat. Haha. Felt like my journey was smooth even at 4th gear.

Oh, by the way, congratz to Su Yuen for getting 4.0 gpa in Matriculation. I expected you to get better, anyways, like 4.1 gpa points. XD

End of this week is GFG. WAAA~!!! Challenge~!!!

Tommorrow go back to school for chemistry practicals. Back to the old days. =D

Life can be hard on you.
So, be hard on your life.

Exams were really difficult, especially Chemistry and Economy. It was madness back then. Maybe it was due to my ignorance to study EARLIER. Last minute study isn't good. Deng.

But, have to keep a positive mind for the next exams. Next week is going to be hell (quote from Wen Chean) with Physics, Maths T and Macroeconomy. And yet I'm still in front of my computer, waiting for 8tv's "So You Think You Can Dance" video recaps to upload.

My instructor's name is Rain Ong.

Rain? Since when he called himself Rain??? Lol...

By the way, his dancing technique rocked like... unable to describe. I constantly see him appearing in cameras dancing only. Note that he is a man with few words. So good, that the camera crew only focuses on those who aren't good (don't believe? See it for yourself... XD). Spoilers: He is already in the Top 20, so what do you think of his capability?

Go, Rain, go! Make us proud!

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WAAAA!!! EXAMS AR~!!!

Oh well, this is life. Where scholarships are rejected and people are complaining.

I have two theories on why many scholarship's applicant has been rejected.

1. The applicant has only great outstanding qualification in academic sense, yet not so active or even unactive in society clubs or sports. This shows that scholarships are looking for outstanding people with a potential future to lead the world and contribute to the society, not to score in exams only.

2. The Malaysian way of selecting scholars was quite one sided. I can't explain futher due to the "Democracy" (Pronounced: "There's more crisis") of the country.

Although we can't really do anything for the second point (except voicing out and let 'them' screw you back), but we should focus back to ourselves, rather than go on complaining (with exceptions for Fu Han, who really deserve to get any scholarships) [Fu Han! Go and reactive your blog again!!! Don't let 'Democracy' stop you!!!]. This doesn't mean you must be good in everything and be AKAP (as kiasu as possible), but this means to excel in whatever you do best. I believe everyone of us is good in so many ways, whether it is in sports, organization or society. We all have the capability to be great leader and contribute back in the society. It's impossible that we can be good in studies ONLY.

I daresay 40% of the scholarship applicants are turned down is because of this factor. Getting good results only don't gurantee you to survive in the real, bad-ass world. The world out there needs people like us to lead in the future.

By the way, that doesn't mean you should focus on your passion only and forget about your studies. By all means, study not for the sake of scoring in exams, but for the sake of the knowledge.

Conclusion: Don't be a nerd like me. Thank you.

Argh~!!! Got to study for exams!!!

Daniel is stressed.

First of all, I have to make the video for GFG out as soon as possible in the middle of exams. Then I rejected Pn. Goh's invitation to do dance perfromance during teacher's day (exam period... how to practice); I feel bad about rejecting it (maybe I should make it up; but how???). I totally forgotten about passing the GFG recruitment form to Ming Long and Suet Er. Monday is Chemistry and yet I'm practicing my Mathematics and studying Economics. I am skipping two dance practice because I wanna study (which apparently I almost failed to do so). My computer has been reformatted (virus attack), so I couldn't spend time on the video. In the middle of my exams, I have to go for dance rehearsals.

Argh~!!! The list goes on and on!!!

Daniel! Breathe!!! (stand-by medical unit gave Daniel a CPR)

*cough* *cough*

And I spent two hours online finding out how Rain (Bi) dance. In the end, I learnt nothing. Great.

Argh~!!!

Dilemma of an absent-minded STPM student

Lately, I felt more relaxed than usual after the performance in MAC. But days later, reality struck me real hard. My mind screamed at me: 'EXAMS LA, YOU DONKEY!!'

Then more challenges arises.

GFG (Galactic Future Group) is going to have a camp on the 30th of May. I am to prepare a slideshow (or video) of people whom have achieved their dream (namely Martin Luther King, Nelson Mandela, Mathama Ghandi, etc.). The whole agenda's purposes is to adjust everyone mindset that we have the capability to achieve our dreams (in terms of studies, career, personal goals, society, etc.). It is going to be hardddd... Well, let's do it then. =D

The dance for Malam Mesra is getting harder and harder (did i just repeated this phrase?).

Exams are coming. And I am so not prepared whatsoever. I never worry about my exams, and this is worrying me (sorry for confusion).

I am spending most of my time playing the piano and dancing. Not good.

Donkey! Wake up!!! =X

Whoa. Great day I had.

Having performed for Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang, I say it is a great experience for all of us dancers. Robson dropped fan also can continue dancing. Zhen Yao BROKE fan also can continue dancing. We entertained the crowd well (I think) and the overall performance is great. One thing I have to say: I was running around like a monkey. *sigh* Time to readjust my running moves.

I received many compliments from people, and the compliments belong to the group. We all put in effort to make it well and almost perfect, as well as the commitments we dilute in (including the commitment to go eat at Green Hut).

Thanks to the crew: Zhen Yao, Chun Wei, Robson Ng, Chern Chiang, Wei Chee, Zi Hao, Heng Choong, and Nicholas Wee.


Thanks to Chern Chiang's camera and Ha Nnah's hands for taking this performance.

I was really, seriously, literally, freaking tired, and that's worth it.

After performance, I went to the Region Kaikan in Kota Damansara to teach children on dancing. I finally figured out that teaching small children is extremely DIFFICULT. Simple steps are not simple to them. Teaching 28 children at the same time is madness. Luckily, they were quite disciplined and willing to learn the steps. Overall, I was satisfied, but still need improvement.

Now, I am really, seriously, literally, permanently, superlative-ly, 'no doubt'-ly, freaking tired.

But hey, I enjoyed myself the whole day. =D